Had nothing but a piece of cake today and a tone of alcohol. Failure? I think so. But I'm still here and I will do better. I worked off most of the cake but when I started drinking... It went down hill. I know I'm a piece of shit and it is taking all my concentration to spell this all right. Fuck, I'm messed up. I hate myself but I am working on it all. I will be better. Tomorrow I intend to fast and I am gonna run for at least an hour. I hate myself. I'm a fat bitch but wish me luck.