Well, I'm the worst person in the world. Remember M? He toldme he loves me.That he has liked me for months now. We got drunk together with a couple friends and I admitted that I had a crush on him... We kissed and we did it again tonight. I'm such a terrible person. I don't deserve anyone. M and C are truly amazing guys and I am treating them like shit. I'm breaking both off tomorrow. I'm telling C all about what I did and M just needs to find someone who is worthy of him, as does C. I feel so shitty right now. I haven't eaten anything all day because of it.

I honestly don't want this blog turning into one of those stupid wishy washy "romantic" blogs. I just need a place to write and get things out. I just really needed to let it out and there is no one I could talk to about this stuff.

Besides my shitty behavior, not much else has gone on.. I still haven't been able to sum up the courage to stand on that damn scale. Don't see it happening anytime soon. I still stare at it every fucking morning, trying to put my feet onto it and read the numbers.

This will be a short post... I just feel so worthless and terrible right now. What I did was completely wrong and and fucking heartless.

Hope all is well- XXX Elizabeth